Winding Rivers of Life

October 28th, 2016, Kiefer Avi and Matt Lackey dropped me off at DIA - in support of a six month journey I felt the call to step into.

S e l f - D i s c o v e r y

There are many calls we experience as Beings - Settling, grounding down, and at times, getting shaken up by the flow state and our surrounding environment. For me, I've always felt the understanding that when stagnacy arises within me, I notice great comfort in my atmosphere. At these times, I strive to expand, explore, and extend my state of comfort.

So, I left to explore asia.

I returned home for several months to be with my chosen family.

And....I left again.

Landing in london the last 6 weeks have rocked me to the bones of my BEing, at times resurfacing the deep wound of Grief for loosing our brother Matt Lackey earlier this year. I left my triBE of colorado, once again, to travel across the world to a place I don't know, do something I swore I'd never do. Go to Grad School. Even though it is within a subject I am devoted to, the academia lens is quite rigerous and exhausting. I Know this is good for me & I trust in the universe for bringing me here.

Who would you have me talk to today?

What would you have me do today?

Where would you have me go today?

Each day, I cried. I was lost. I was confused. I was Angry. I started to pray more than I ever have. Asking for miracles from source. Finding Matt in everything and every person. I couldn't see anything as it was before me. My hands were on the wheel of my ship, which has thus far sailed the waters of life with minor damage, experiencing that which all ships should. Full on spectrum of emotional observance. What a gift it is to feel so deeply, so fully....... so creatively.

In my illusion, which I will go into.... I called upon my tribe through my prayer. So many stepped into my field every few days, if not on the daily, to check in on me and HOLD space for me. My tribe has a gift. To Actively LISTEN to the person whom is talking. How many times are we 100% present with the person in front of us, listening with undivided attention? This is something I know I am guilty of and have set my intentions to be more present in the moment with you & with alec. 

Grad school is pretty intense. I have 5 classes, which span for a total of 11 hours of contact time in the classroom a week. Probably 1000+ pages a week, which I definitely will not read! That's too much for my brain power to conceptialize. Although the topics are pretty amazing, they are very deep in the thread of Ancient Yoga. Unpacking the Vedas, The Brahmanas, Aranyakas, Upanishads, and more texts have shown me much there is to learn. Many of my collegues and peers in my class are quite qualified to be in this class, and in regards of an academia lens, I feel the most under qualified. However, The Spirit of Yoga has brought me here. To learn. To be open. To exercise Austerity & Tapas of SelfStudy.

Example of Illuision: There have been times in class when what we are discussing has 'nothing' to do with Yoga. What Does this have to do with Yoga??

Well. This is a bunch bullshit if I ask myself. How the bless could I have just seriously asked myself, 'What does this have to do with yoga?' THAT is the question I should be asking myself every DAY. What does this moment have to do with Yoga? Where are you not? True installation into the moment.

I have been resisting the moment for almost 5 weeks. I was projecting into what my life looks like, 12-15 months into the future and not BEing here, now. It was and IS devasting, exhausting, and quite toxic. I highly suggest against this. I was going against the grain, dismembering my chord to the earth, disconnecting with Great Spirit and Divine Mother,  due to my illusion that the cold roughness of London dampened my Manifesting Powers. This was all due to the Power of Thought. The Discipline of Thought.

Our thoughts have extreme play upon our days. We are the curators of our experience, and so....It Shall Be.


So, It Shall Be.

Whatever path You wish to illuminmate, so it can BEcome, as long as we allow for our own BEcoming.

Due to my stubbornness to not look at my own experience, I began to reach out. Through about 8 or 9 powerful reflections of my tribe, which came in the form of benevolence and divine trust of lord Shiva, or merciless facts of truth being revealed by Lord Rudra (an earlier vedic depiction of the Hindu God Shiva. He was not entirely, 'nice'.) and sometimes, these humanely reflections of my best friends came to me in the essence of hanuman, or, parvati. Total Love. I am So grateful. These specific BEings allowed me to see what I was not seeing and remind myself of how powerful I am, the great work I am doing. Because.....

I asked for help.

I open my heart and hands to God in order to receive the miracle of Support and Abunance.

I place all my relationships in your hands, great spirit, allowing for them to take their course. I release all burdens that Do Not Serve Me.


And then.... In a matter of a few days, when I stopped being a stubborn ass Aries ram, I watched my manifesting powers turn on. A yoga opportunity came to me. My sweet friend Greta came to visit me in london, providing an amplified reminder of the divinity within myself & all beings. The School work load somehow became less anxious. A dozen of my favorite artists put on shows in London or nearby and I totally bought tickets. Nicolas Jaar. four Tet. Tourist. Nahko. Oh Wonder. Nils Frahm. just to name 6.... :) I landed a job opportunity and have an interview at Dishoom- a fine dining indian restaurant that I really like!! (If you don't know....I'm half indian and I have extreamly high standards of indian food, thanks to my lovely mom & naniJi.) 

So... I thought to share these short experiences in leading up to where I am as I type this.


October 27th, 2017. One year later. I am on a superspeed train from London St. Pancras to Paris du Nord. I am going to Celebrate my self and dance with Matt Lackey tomorrow night at Nicolas Jaar. (I'm also going to manifest a ticket to nico's show tonight for a two night run.... Thank you matt.)  One year ago tomorrow, Matt dropped me off at the airport to begin a journey I will never forget. He helped me wake up. Again. And again. And Again. Continuously in the waking process through peering within. It is a close call to Halloween and the Day of the Dead. Here the veil is thin, the connection to of the Living and Dead can be touched in a greater Way..... I have prayed to Matt and my Angels to come into me & Become Me. A divine consort sailing in company of the infinite. I believe in the good things coming.....I Believe in all challenges as opportunities for me to be within spiritual growth.

I have matt's ashes around my neck & I am wearing my I BELIEVE IN ANGELS shirt.

I Have Arrived Safely, Undelayed & Perfectly On Time.



I'll close with sharing of some of the Upanishadic verses and prose.

Chandogya 6.8.2 (c. 600 BCE): Just as a bird that is tied with a string flies off in every direction and, when it cannot find a resting place anywhere else, settles back on the thing to which it is tied, so too the mind (manas) flies off in every direction, and when it cannot find a resting place anywhere else, it settles back on the breath itself, for the mind... is tied to the breath (prana bandhanam mana).

Rg Veda 10.190 (earliest veda): Order (rta) and truth (satya) were born from heat (tapas) as it blazed up. From that was born night, from that heat (tapas) was born the billowy ocean.

Katha Upanishad 3.2: ....I am the breathing spirit (prana), the intelligential self (prajnaatman). As such, reverence, (upasva) me as life, as immortality. Life is the breathing spirit. The breathing spirit, verily, is life. The breathing Spirit, indeed, is immortality.... for indeed, with the breathing spirit in this world one obtains imortality, with intelligence, the true conception.  // So he who reverences (Upaste) me as life, as immortality, reaches the full term of life in this world, he obtains immortality, indestructibility in the heavenly world.

 So... For now, I shall research my first essay topic: 

Compare and assess the Yogik Powers in the BagavadGita & the PatanjalayayogaSastra! 


Off for now. 


Listen. Breathe. Speak.


Many Blessings. I love you.

I Really, Really Love You.

You make a difference EVERY. Single. DAY. 

Believe it. Feel it. Access it. Your light is bright and needed at this time.

Thank you. 


Your brother,


Alec Vishal Rouben                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             





Across The Room

'Elo, my friend!


I have been in London the past sixteen days & am beginning to find the ground beneath me. One of the greatest grounding factors is allowing myself to go through a 10-day Cleanse through my SuperFood Company while being here. And Trust me- I really didn't want to do that! I want to eat vegan sweets, all the amazing pastries, and enjoy the red wine... Thankfully I have a full year to do this! Having a routine has always been supportive of my lifestyle, even though the rebel inside of me begs to differ. I am grateful for all that has unfolded; as I trust in the universe and what will need to be, will be. Truly grateful for the shift that eating healthy and mindfully has brought into my life! - and WHO it has brought into my field!

Last night, September 29th, I had an amazing night which brought me closer to myself as I truly host the living intention to breathe: Be My Best Friend, Love Myself, Date Myself, and Be a Radical Self-expressive human being! I remember when I landed from Asia in Boulder back in April and woke up one day in total grief and sadness, due to the death of our brother, only to find that Odesza would be touring through London within a few weeks of me landing there! Immediately, I bought two tickets and it was a positive omen for the journey that was months away. So much life has happened since then, and life continues to happen before my eyes....and one of the biggest shifts is that LIFE is not forcing me to LIVE. I CHOOSE to live in a state of True happiness and cultivated abundance. I am a LIGHT BEING (and so are you!) We have the choice to be anything we want in this life.


Times Flies as this rock spins, hurling through space. My time here in London is about to get busy, quickly. I have always been great at balancing my work life & social life -- sometimes spending more time (and money) on the social life factor. I pray that I will continue to do that, as I magnetize myself into a conscious tribe of Life Lovers & Light Beings Radiating LOVE!

I have become somewhat adept at learning the tube lines and how to navigate them...making some mistakes here and there, resulting in laughter. It's good medicine, to laugh at our own mistakes sometimes! Afterall.... (I believe) that all is unfolding in divine purpose....My feet land exactly where they are meant to be. Synchronicity continues to guide the way... Do you believe that? What do you believe? Do you think we all have a purpose? A reason to live? Or is all this just a coincidence? These are questions that I tend to ask myself everyday.

Arriving at Odesza i was beaming LIGHT and pure excitement. My Solo mission journey was the only way I could have imagined BEing at Odesza! I prayed to Matt to join me and felt his presence seep throughout each cell in my being as the openers began. I was on the right side of the top balcony, gazing over the shoulder-to-shoulder crowd below (somewhat the size of The Boulder Theatre in Colorado). As Hayden James came on, I stood up and let my body loosen up, realizing I was one of 10 people standing- 3 of those 10 people dancing amongst the entire sold out upper balcony.

Initially, I felt; 'WHAT DOING!?'

followed by a critical: 'I'm on the wrong side because the other side has more people standing and kind of dancing. Then I laughed at the absurdity of this comment to my self and recognized my judgment. In the flow of conversing with myself, I said, 'No! that's so silly of you to say! You're on the Right side! Literally!" And I continued to dance, WWLD (What Would Lackey Do) style, which essentially is like DGAF! I could sense around me, that some of the individuals have not found a deeper awareness in their body to move so freely, and this is something I am grateful to be a light to inspire & celebrate the uniqueness that each individual holds; the Greater Potential of our Being to EXPRESS!(So we can BLESS it UP!) Someone had come up to me while dancing and we talked briefly; he had shared with me, you are so unique! I had commented how content I was to feel that apart of me felt like I don't fit in amongst the wandering pedestrians or even amongst some of the crowd here at the show. Kindly he said, "Mate, you're in London. Trust me. you FIT in. Your vibe is Camden Town and Kentish Town. Your people are there!" I recognized my closedness after this conversation subsided, only to feel it was a positive omen that I am indeed, getting closer to my tribe out here.

After Hayden James finished, A man came up to me and asked me If I was High On Anything. I said, "I'm high on my Life, Music, and Superfoods!" This conversation led to him asking me about my life, which brought Yoga into the mix, naturally. This brother shared he has a bad cocaine problem and wants to get off and requested my help through the practice of Yoga & Nutrition. Positive omen, if you ask me!  I gave him my number & A $50 gift card to Platinum Europe Superfood Health Stores. We'll see what unfolds with that!! Over / under he messages me? I think under....We shall see!

Odesza was coming on soon and I began to chat with the fellow next to me, who shares the passion forDeep House Music! And this mate, Rhys, told me that he was stoked to take me to a Club where all they play is Sexy Deep House Music!!! YAHSS QUEEN!!!

~You had me at Sexy Deep House Music~

I have been graced to see Odesza about half a dozen times, since 2013. Odesza at Lightning In a Bottle 2013 was an experience of Enlightenment, a Self-Realizing moment where I could truly, for the first time in my life, Surrender into Total Trust to the Divine Plan of Life Unfolding before me. Each time I've seen Odesza, I have been able to return to this place, allowing myself to access this Higher State of Contentment through my waking life and through other platforms of where I investment my Energy & Attention. Throughout the night of dancing to Odesza, I closed my eyes frequently, dancing freely, connecting to the infinite reach of the stars above, just as If I was in Red Rocks dancing amongst my Tribe! Naturally, there are moments of my Aloneness that pass through, which I have experienced daily while being here in london & quite often during my solo travels over the periods of my life. I do my best to embrace this moment where I am, with whom I am experiencing life with - especially if it is Me, Myself, And I. Through and Through, I love myself!

I am a close friend with my aloneness or Loneliness, which is a tricky game of playing the victim in our own experience of meeting ourselves where we are. First off- There is a profound difference between Aloneness and Loneliness. To me- one plays victim more than the other and holds a woeisme kind of nature to it.... Aloneness is a natural thing. To Be Alone with ourselves, stepping into the essence of our being and meeting ourselves in the Heart. I am a creature that strives on connection with others and what I have come to understand about myself, is that I have much work to do when it comes to cultivating Best Friend - Self-Love - True Santosha (contentment) within the layers of my Own Being, and that excites me! Because I already LOVE myself so much! And there is so much more to find out how to love! For me I have always found that a specific visualization aids me in finding togetherness with the world around me, reminding myself that I am never alone, despite being placed in a location away from those that aid in the Life Fuel of my heartbeat. Or- even when I'm in my bed alone.

Astral projection is a beautiful thing; sending awareness into the space of infinity- the stars - where Cosmic Nothingness and Absolute Oneness may exist. (I just feel something there. I towards that something. Often. It brings me comfort and security in my humanness. Because all in all, we are god...) In this space of viewing the curvature of the earth, the sun shining on half the globe, I am able to see myself, amongst the billions and billions of Beings. And here, I gather deep perspective on Where I am, Whom I am, and How truly fortunate I am to be living in this existence that gives me the opportunity to CREATE ANYTHING I WANT.


In Life, You can have anything you want



I believe that. So very much. I have attracted so many powerful things into my life, which began with the original seed intention of a thought. The Thought grew with careful attention and trust in the unfolding process.

I am feeling deeply prepared for this upcoming journey. My conviction has begun to grow. Monday is day one of School & I will begin to taste what will be demanded of me over this upcoming year of my life.


So, On this post, I don't have too much to share other than what has been spoken. Initially, I wanted to share the feelings of total trust that MUSIC provides & that we ought to always be ourselves, no matter what. I felt that I didn't belong here for a few weeks, where deep down; I was not exercising compassion for myself as I begin the settling process. The Process, is just that, a winding road filled with lefts, rights, & -u-turns because you meant to take that secret corridor that will lead you into a room filled with unlimited possibilities!

For now, I shall be in the request of omens to let me know whether or not I am to Sell my Handpan. Interested? I am in total manifestation mode and abundance for an opportunity to TEACH YOGA at SOAS university, Local Yoga Studios, Manifesting Superfood Brand Partners who want to build residual income from their phone, & finding myself a side Job while here in London!! There is a chocolate shop down the street from me with amazing vegan options.....and I might go check it out! HA!



Ta-ta for now. All my love.


More soon <3




Suspended In a Dream - Waking in A Sun Burning Desert

~ OM NAMAH SHIVAYA ~ Burning Man 2017

~ OM NAMAH SHIVAYA ~ Burning Man 2017

Time has pulled me into the hourglass and I have become each grain of sand that falls through the tiniest hole, landing upon each other, stacking experience after experience....and there comes a time when the hourglass needs to be flipped, so the script may continue to tell its story.
In this space, between resting upon the ground I have built over the past 7 years, which has held multiple shakes, spins, and shatters of the wheel, especially over the past 5 months, I am feeling almost lost in my direction of chosen action. The hourglass is neither on the ground, nor at the apex of nearing its landing pad. The morsels are floating amongst the edges of space in the glass, waiting.....waiting.....what am I waiting for? Where is my presence of NOW?
At times, I observe the internal dialogue of the ravaging critic developing a story based upon suffering and then I realize all the amazing things occurring in my life, which quickly dispels the wicked thoughts of self-doubt. This Fuels Empowerment as I step into deeper reflection. Reflection of the passing moment....and reflection of the past 11 months.


^^ I wrote this on September 12th, 2017 and then put it down & I suppose I did not return to it....until now. I'll continue as I agree with all of my words above, they still ring true. However- THE SAND MORSELS HAVE LANDED AND THEY ARE BUILDING. First....some background context to catch us up to speed of What The Heck is Going on!



October 28th, 2016 (one year anniversary of the last day I saw Matt Lackey Approaches)- is the day I set out on a 6-month travel trip across Asia, which taught me the Language of The Universe. I began to learn how to read Omens from the surrounding response that is the Waking Universe. These 6-months changed my life and set the stage for the coming years. I returned home early to the death of our tribe's best friend, which you may know about if you are reading this post. Three months were spent in Boulder, Colorado where I willingly spiraled into a dark place of grief, depression, and sadness. Underneath all of these beautiful emotions, I found an infinite wellspring of Divine Pure Love & Light, transformed by the hearts of our LOVEtriBE in Colorado. Matt Lackey is always in the heart of our hearts, in the shine of the sun, the wandering hoofs of the mountain goat, & in the breath of the wind. He is Alive.


July 2017 transformed my heart space as I flew to Maui to study with my Teacher, Eddie Modestini and fall into a Love Vibration with one of my best friends, Romney Smith! I LOVE YOU HI :D The month of July was deeply steeped in yoga & building my superfood business with Eddie, who got me hooked on the nourishing foods I have been sharing. Practicing for 8 hours a day, 6 days a week is always a powerful way to get right to the heart of your shit! I love it so much! Journeying into the wisdom of yoga with an experienced teacher, which is truly, allowing ourselves to see the divinity within. The Container is so strong and always assures growth. Being at Eddies Shala on maui with Romney was a dream come true; to be able to harness the energy of Love in Relationship while studying a mutual passion together; Yoga. YOGA IS RELATIONSHIP & all relationship is reflected in YOGA! The value I hold to yoga is unparalleled- never before in my life have I felt magnetized to pursue anything to this caliber! I was always a black sheep who felt like he never belonged, which was a time when self-love was not a conscious concept for Alec. To be able to connect and speak the language of Yoga, Earth-Spirit, and self-introspection through yoga is a lens that is embedded into the sight of my soul; which allows me to synchronize with few individuals in a romantic sense. For me, It had been many years since I have connected on this level & I am in awe and true gratitude to the universe as she responds to these prayers. We receive when we are truly ready. You never know, your next love might already be in your life! :)

July was powerful. Yoga & building my superfood business filled me up while connecting with Romney on the mana-steeped island of Maui. August came quick which took me to Dallas, Texas, where I learned the business model that this superfood company is based off of. Meeting the owners & my team provided me with a sense of comradery that I hold in every other aspect of my life, which resonated with me on a deep level! While there, I was gifted with so much knowledge about clinical studies of these superfood products and the level of integrity the company has! This has given me a powerful belief in what I have to share and offer the world as a true healing modality that is paired with yoga. I keep going from one location to the next, with all the excitement to SOAK UP HEALING!

After Texas, I came back to my beloved Boulder for 6 days. During these 6 days I was moving QUICK! Packing up for a 3.5 week journey on the road with the best friends of my life, to honor ourselves and our fallen brother, Matt Lackey. Romney returned to prepare herself as well and we spent an amazing 3 days with each other while putting our lives into our vehicles! We took off for Eclipse festival in Oregon and Burning Man with Brother Joey & Kiefer. Awaiting to align with the Tribe!


WOW! What a powerful 3.5 weeks. The Level of Love I hold for each individual in my tribe is so powerful & ancient. We have done this dance of Life and Death - Realizing one another in this life is a true gift to behold. Beauty, is absolutely in the eye of the beholder. We attended one of our worlds greatest phenomena together. A Total Solar Eclipse and experienced a naked dance of adoration together as the Sun & Moon fell into astrological alignment with one another. This covered us in the Darkness of Night at 11am in Oregonian Prairie as we stumbled upon a divinely placed stream to rest our tribe for our ceremony. Here we laid down our old stories, past layers of being, and guilt. Our tribe held Life & Death in our hands as we opened a portal, moments after the eclipse washed us clean. With The Ashes of Matt Lackey & The Pranic Seeds of Plant Life held in our hands, the connection forced tears to flow into the stream as We All Let it Go. There is so much to write about here & I will continue to do this at another time. My intention is to catch up to this moment.....

After Eclipse, Burning Man Happened. It's burning man out there, man!!! I am in awe of a place where 70,000 come to truly BE. A desert Art-filled wonderland created for the sole enjoyment of people by people! My Crew was Romney, Joey, Karl, Sonja, Gaia, and Eric. It was so beautiful have a tight triBE of 3 best friends & strengthen another, while meeting two new beautiful people. Each night was filled with Lessons, Adventures, and massive Self-Reflection. Honoring Matt Lackey in the temple was my primary intention to go & we did just this.


I'll share one experience. Sitting at the temple, We peered into the sky and observed a beautiful tapestry of color beginning to rise. The Sun was on the way and the Earth was spinning ~ Fast. Tears had fallen into the dust of the playa, in reflection and memory of Matt Lackey. I held Romney as she held me, sharing stories in our teary-eyed laughter. As we turned around to take in our surroundings, I said, "I miss him so much. I love him so much. I feel him out there." We looked up at the sky at the same time and simultaneously saw a Blue-Green-White-Yellow streak of light PIERCE a quarter of our peripherals in the sky! I thought it was a lazer or a plane, only to realize it was Matt Lackey coming to us as an omen in the shape of an Asteroid. We were both in awe of the magic that the Playa Provides. Love you matt lackey!

Burning man is a place of true beauty. It is unlike any place in the entire world. You should probably go. If you don't like the dust, you probably shouldn't go. It's quite dusty. Go once and you can integrate burning man into your daily life! this is really fun :) I won't spend time convincing anyone to go to burning man, I'll see you there, Or I won't. I love you!

After the burn, I returned to Boulder for 4 days. Cleaned up and de-playa-fied my life. Said goodbye to Romney in the physical sense of being next to her, said goodbye to most of my tribe & went to Kentucky to bid my blood family farewell. I then came back to boulder for 24 hours so I could gather my closest brothers and sisters one more time.I am SO Grateful to the Jarboes for always hosting me at their home when I leave for a really long time!! I sat on the compliment blanket and received admiration, adoration, courage, and divine support from my brothers and sisters for this     E P I C journey I am swimming in now.


And began.

The now.


I sit in a tea shop on Brick Lane, in Eastern London on a busy Sunday where the Market is bustling amongst the cobblestone footing. I am living with a lovely supportive Atheist Sikh man who is quite well at communication; I'm grateful and happy for this! A blessed Flat located at #9, 1 Kings Arms Cross found me through a lovely sister, Libby! THANKS OLIVIA! At this point, I have been in the UK for 9 days. During this time I have made 3 friends, visited the Beaches of Normandy in France with my parents (where DOOMSDAY occurred, so powerful. Crazy- Different time, same place), ate amazing food, explored two exciting parts of London named Camden Market and Brick Lane, dropped into the portal that is StoneHenge, learned how to use the tube system, Start a 10-day health reset transformation to ground myself for school, and set my Sacred space!

Tomorrow Is day ONE at SOAS University! School of Oriental, Asian, and African Studies! Welcome week begins and I am excited to step foot onto campus and redirect lots of energy that has been stirred up within me over the past week. There has been a great freedom in wandering around in a city where I know Nobody and Nobody Knows Me. I feel... more free than I have felt before, despite missing my tribe. There is a deep curiosity within me, to know myself more than what I feel. I am on this journey here in London, focusing on myself, Dating myself, Loving my life & looking deep within as I reflect; in order to grow and expand consciousness. Each Day and Night I have consciously been setting Shields of Light into my Body & My Room, protecting me from the darker energies, that do indeed lurk around the streets here. I have gone through the fluctuations of extreme intensity over the past few days as I allow the residue of travel to begin to Settle - allowing Clarity of Purpose to Re:Reveal itself into my awareness... and it is now starting to arrive. My mission is remembering itself. I am nuzzling up into my seat~ accessing the hard-drive intell from my soul.


I am embarking on a Journey into the new year(L'Shana Tova!) and it begins NOW! I have been broken and broken open, ready to navigate the inner workings of the inventive mind through the Color-infused lens that is Yoga. While here, I am manifesting and magnetizing myself into a triBE is searching for me, just as I am searching for them, Open and willing to receive the positive reflection of growth. I am calling in a Yoga studio where I can Teach yoga at! I have taught for 6 years and come this October, it will be a solid year without a consistent teaching schedule and I am ready to drop back into offering public classes, within the style of what I am practicing.

We must always: Practice what we teach, teach what we practice! 

I am blessed to share this with you! Thank you for reading if you made it this far. I appreciate you and value what you are doing in your life! Truly, I'd love to connect with you and hear more. Start a conversation, especially if we don't talk too often, and most definitely if I don't know you! I'd like to know you!

For now, I am going to have a shake as I complete day 2 of this 10-day Health Transformation with these superfoods. Stoked on putting positive nutrition in my body after exploring the desert with my tribe for a month and eating the delicacies found in France :) This Friday I will see ODESZA in London, next month see NICOLAS JAAR in Paris, and early November get blessed up by OH WONDER in london. Life is so freaking blessed and I'm grateful to be ALIVE!


If you're in the area, feel free to connect as I'd love to share a cup of tea and talk about the universe and how amazing life is with you.


I love you. I bow to you.



Listen to the universe speaking through you today! (and If it doesn't go to our heads too much, as we wake up~  we can realize that we are god.....That's a realizing day!)


In Yoga,


Alec Vishal Rouben


more soon.

The Man Meets His Boy (Peeling Off the Inner Scar of the Child)

This is an investigation of the inner child within ~ When there was a time in life that involved a dissolved sense of Awe & childlike Curiosity. Noting an experience when innocence disappeared. The Bold Letters represent words of wisdom from evolved self, meeting the young boy, while he is being seduced and consumed by realities edge. 


Inspired by my brother Kiefer Avi ~ the truest wizard I know investigating Neurosculpting® 



In a Realm where... "Once upon a time" existed with an illusive tale of family perfection (understood with an ongoing state of contentment) 


There was a Boy who felt a light inside. (and this light expanded infinitely each day.)


He smiled, laughed, and joked with his family; feeling the love. 


The Boy and The Dog, Weeko, were best friends.


They played outside everyday, running through the open backyard amongst the towering trees. 


She even played video games with The Boy.


The Light inside the Boy began to experience an rooftop that enclosed his heart with each passing year. (However, his light held a center of Truth and Radiance that could never be dimmed.)


The Parents yelled. The Parental's fought. (But The Boy smiled and was told by spirit, everything will be okay.)


One one specific day, The Boy threw his heavy head of confusion & drenched eyes into the Red Leather LOVseat, feeling everything was his fault. (The Boy would cry openly, knowing that tears were the signs of emotional clarity in his hurt and produced freedom.) 


A fantasy world of anxiety arose when The Boy felt he could fix everything. (The Boy knew he was responsible for his thoughts and actions alone, no one else's.) 


But. He couldn't. (The Boy listened to the Intuitive Stream of how to Be. He simply could... BE.)


The Aloneness crept upon him each night, keeping The Sandman away from recalling the boy to the dream world. (Until the stillness of meditation revealed Life As It Truly Is in the present moment.) 


So, upon another day, in the midst of the moonlight, The Boy decided to crawl out of his bed.

He Tip-toed down the hallway.


Walked through the living room and lay down on the ground next to the kitchen door, which had closed, just moments before his stealthy arrival.


The Parental's had hoped to keep the decibel of their voices low from the assumed sleeping Boy. (The Boy was waking up.)


The Boy laid in the dark room, feeling the cold wooden floor, with squinted eyes from the kitchen light as it pierced through the crevice under the door. 


The Boy heard his name strung together with Earth Shattering thoughts and stories. (Destiny unfolded with a wellspring of strength and confidence to be integrated throughout The Boys life.)


He cried and tried to not make a sound. 


But He did. (Angels held The Boy.) 


The door opened and they sweetly said with grave concern, "How did you get there?" Praying The Boy did not overhear the topics of their imminent separation. (He learned to accept that which is beyond our control.) 


Pretending to know nothing, The Boy played 'dead', wondering what that would be like. He Still Does. (The Boy is so blessed to be alive & radiates loving kindness with each blink of his eye.) 


The Parents walked The Boy to bed. 


The days, months, & years went by. (With an anticipation of a great mystery unfolding...)


Anxiety, Self-doubt, and worry through conviction kept the boy second guessing relationships, school, and every facet of decisions in his life. (He tasted True Love, Friendship, Ecstasy, and Trust in The Universe. Thus, helping the boy truly open his eyes for the first time.)


The inner wisdom became quiet. (Until He began to see himself in others.)


Disconnection from nature became real when video games took precedent. (Interconnectedness synchronized his heart into the vibration of all beings -- and He fell in Love.) 


Negative fantasies, violent projections, & distrust in the earthly world had initiated. (Helpful stories of wealth in the Tribe were whispered through the winds. Cosmic Creations of Expansion and True Understanding of the world at hand began to unfold.)


Then the world began with each day being a new challenge to wake up against and step forward into. (Each day became a blessing to open two eyes and experience the gift of air that is his breath.)


The Man had met The Boy inside. Years passed, twenty six to be exact. Love grew. And He Knew.

The world was huge

no longer caged by Fear. 

The walls went in every direction and they



The World became the Playground.

He learned from others to spread his Thesis of Love. 

He dotted the 'I's and crossed the 'T's; and began his mission.

with love in the heart of this Universe, I Give Thanks

with love in the heart of this Universe, I Give Thanks





Churning Shadow; Food Healing Light

The Man returned to a place where stress, depression, and daily challenge was strung together with anxiety, bringing the boy into a perpetual state of confusion. Thankfully, this was a just a chapter of a way of life that no longer existed as solidly as the ground he walks upon now. 

Louisville, My Old Kentucky Home.

Through the grace of Maktub, that which is writtenYoga Happened. The boys eyes' began to evolve into the young man whose eyelids became partially open, seeing a little more, day by day.  

The past six years, he returned home for just a few days, keeping in awareness The Willow Tree (which was a catalyst to the birth of embodying LOVELiFE). The Tree helped him peep his eyelids open for the first time at his nineteenth year of life, but it was just a glimpse into truth. Now, we are on the search for said reality. 

Through these past six years, Yoga has grounded down past patterns of Being & Anxiety that once ruled each moment.

Especially now • 

More than ever • 

The Young Boy Felt Like A Man Walking Upon Ash With The Essence Of Love Imbued Within


Dear, Body.

I am so grateful you are able to pay attention to the quality of thought in our mind, the texture of air that courses through our lungs. I love you SO much. It's been quite a journey coming to Love Who We Are. That Asia trip was pretty tough on you. I'm Glad Eddie Modestini gave us something to stabilize and optimize our energy systems, we needed it. Desperately. I promise to share what feels good to you with the world! These Superfoods help you with sustained energy, deep restful sleep, and focused productivity when we need to Lock It In. This is a blessing that has pacified our morning Hanger concerns from your crazy fast metabolism! How cool it is to feel so level and grounded upon waking up! Body, I'm excited to be on this journey of life with you! 


Your Soulful Companion known as Alec


Physical Body says, "Wow, Alec, We Feel Amazing!! Keep Doing What You're Doing And Put This Superfood In Your Body Every Single Day! It's Making A Huge Difference!"

Emotional Body says, "No. You're Sad. Dip Your Heart Into This Experience Of Grief. We Miss Matt."

One of a Dozen Stories passing through the field of awareness: "YOU'RE ALIVE! And Matt would want us to be living each moment, STOKED to breathe this fresh air and start this new amazing project of sharing superfoods!!! He is also so hyped that there's someone out inspiring you to Write more, Make decisions based on your TRUTH; not circumstances of life, as well as having you to think twice about how this could potentially make you a better human being. Wow... We are so BLESSED to ALIVE! This simple and overly shared statement has become a truth that is felt for the first time. 

There's this other story that plays through the field, less now than it has for a few weeks. We don't feel its worth the negative play of words, as to not taint your beautiful canvas of thought. So... 


I know someone who does this with each word written and spoken; and it continues to train our mind with ways of Being that are tantalizing to consider. It is a Shot of Awe. Every time! 


Another story that sharing superfoods has produced



So, the point being of this share; 

I just started working with this company that makes organic, Non-GMO products that are powerfully effective in helping people get Healthy, address health concerns, alter habitual relationships in eating, as well as making a solid second stream of income. This has proved to be a positive area for me to place my attention and focus, when things have been hard to place energy in. I feel grateful for a platform to express new forms of energy and creativity in! Feeling the call to SHARE! 

I am Looking for people who want to share this as a positive business prospect together; providing a healing modality for the planet, your body, and other peoples lives! Aligning with the mission to better our world! 

I'd love to share with you, the Reader, my friend, these amazing superfoods that have changed my life as a Human Being, A Yoga Student, Teacher, and as a waking mover of energy in the day. Let's connect! 


Bowing to the flow of shadows that are in flux each day, revealing the Light In Life. 

Remember, You Are So Beautiful.

You Make A Difference Each Day.



all my love,